What changes a life?
What makes a difference?
Do you strive to better yourself so you can be the best version of you for others?
I used to be a people pleaser. And sometimes that tendency happens to flare up. But now days I have been so focused on my mental health that caring for others has fallen to the wayside. Not that I'm not nice or anything. But now I put myself first. Sounds selfish, right?
Wrong. Because if we can't care for our needs how can we care for other's needs?
Bwing around a lot of people always bothers me. The noise and being unavle to hear individual conversations in the midst of all the chatter. It stresses me out and exhausts me. I NEED time alone to recharge. Is that being selfish? No. I am taking care of myself so I can be the best me I can be.
When my mom had her strokes yeara ago, I moved in with mom and dad to help her. She needed 24/7 care. I didn't get breaks. I slept on the couch so I could hear her when she would get up to go to the toilet. The moments while she was sleeping, I wouls get household chores done. My dad would come home from work and help a little. But it was the times ai spent away from her that I came to maoe the most out of. I treasured every moment I have had and will have with my mom. But I needed that break.
Was I being selfish? NO!!
I would have burnt out long ago.
When I was first diagnosed with Boderline Personality Disorder among other illnesses, I felt like it was a life sentence. I have come to terms with it now. The thing is, in the 7 years of treatments, I can finally say I am finding my happiness.
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