unanswered questions

There will always be things that happen in our lives that we will not understand. I can think of many questions that, although people have tried to answer them, they remain a mystery. Those questions seem to always be the difficult questions that on one hand no one wants to answer and on the other people are desperate to have answers.

Questions like:

-Why do bad things happen to good people?
-Why did so and so do that and hurt me?
-Why do we have to die or why did our loved one doe so young or unexpectedly?
-Where was God when bad things happened to me, to a loved one?
-Why doesn't/didn't God heal me or my loved one?

I could go on, but you get the picture. Those are some powerful questions that have the potential to shape who we are and what we believe.

Part of being human is curiosity. We constantly want to know the how, why and what of things. God created us that way. To want to learn, to explore to go beyond the human limits. Change is inevitable. God is constant. We may never know the answers to those questions. I'm not even going to try to answer them because God is the one who has all the answers.
But I do want to say this, whatever happens in our lives, good or bad, if we keep our minds and hearts open to the unexplainable and unpredictable of God, then we can learn to accept, even a little bit, that in the end, God was there. He heard us. He didn't turn away from our suffering. He mourned with us, laughed with us, and was with us thru it all. How do I know this? Because I've experienced it. I've read about who God is in the Bible. I've cried and prayed and prayed and accepted unanswered prayers and broken heartedness. I've seen miracles happen to other people but not to me or my loved ones. I've seen death and the pain that it causes. I've seen how in the very moment when I needed someone to be there for me, I encountered God.
I still have doubts and fears. I still question God and His motives. I still hurt over family I have lost I still cry at night praying that God would draw near to me. I wouldn't be human if I didn't do those things.. Satan likes to give us am illusion that we are in control, not God. Satan likes to cause hatred and fear to be our companions instead of love and courage. We have a choice to make. Do we accept love and move forward in courage or do we sit down in hate and fear until that's all we have left? It's a daily choice we all have to make. I want to choose well.