I'm in the process of applying for a bigger apartment and it has been anxiety filled! There has been so much paperwork, I never imagined it to be this hard and drawn out. I am beginning to see more and more how my worldview is not very knowledgeable. I'm learning things now that I should've already experienced. For instance, taking an animal to a vet. Or at least going in to make the appointment. There was paperwork involved there too. Or buying meat at a grocery store. I've bought hamburger before, and sausage, but to buy the roast I wanted, I had to stop and think about it. And I even asked a cashier how to cook a roast in a crock pot. No paperwork needed.
Then there are the endless things that I keep thinking about needing for this new apartment. I have to remind myself that I don't and can't get it all at once, but in chunks. My apartment will look pretty void of furniture. But that's OK. I am excited for this new chapter of my life. Having a full apartment and not an efficiency, will be a treat. Having a sink and a bathtub and a living room and a kitchen will be like heaven on earth to me. And yet, I do have to admit that I am thankful for the place I've been staying the last 2 years. It came to me as emergency housing and has been a place if refuge for me.
The more I sit here writing this post, the more I realize that people and things will always come and go in my life. Jobs and living arrangements are never permanent, as much as we like to think they are. And at the end of the day, the only thing that remains is the answer to this questions,
Was I grateful for the blessings?
Did I love with all of my being everyone who crossed paths with me?
Did I choose to do good and run from evil?
Did I allow myself to grow emotionally and spiritually today?
Did I care for myself by meeting my needs, evaluating my wants and surrendering all?
Those are the questions that are on my mind right now. I have to admit that I don't get it right every time. I mess up. But that's OK. There's always grace. More on that later...
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