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Wednesday, August 22, 2018

Trust and depression

My story is long but I'll try to keep it short.
I streuggle with several mental illnesses every single day. I do not get a break or rest from the anxiety and stress this causes not to mention the other mental symptoms that I have.
Today I was going thru a box of office supplies and found 7 unused journals. Lol. And then 2 half used ones. To my surprise one of the half used journals was from January 2018 right after I got off the psych ward. I was there for 7 days. It was good for me but incredibly difficult to accept that this is my life right now. In and out of the psych ward. That was my 13th time of being hospitalized since 2013.
Anyways, I read what I wrote during that time and was surprised at the truth of what I was saying. I won't post it all here but one thing was "Trust is both blind faith and logical fact". How true.
I havent journaled since.
Me not journaling says A LOT. I have over 35 journals spanning 18 years. (I'm getting older - gasp!) So yeah, I just know that somehow in my mind I just gave up on journaling. It feels like I have nothing important to say.

My whole point of writing this is to ask for help. (Which isn't easy). I want ideas on how to get back into journaling. Prompts, quotes, encouraging pages whatever. I need community. I need you all.

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