Romans 10:9

I had an epiphany today. And it surprised me because I wasn't looking for it. Lol.
All my life I have gone thru so much hardship and trials. It makes looking back at my past very hurtful and sad. I used to think that my past was my past and had no impact on my present or future.
But today, I realized that thru remembering a bunch of miniscule events that happened to me several years ago, it has brought me to the place where I am now. Like if I hadn't gone thru those things, I wouldn't be where I am now. More and more I am convinced that life is not just a bunch of random events that shape our lives. They are entertwinned and overlapping each other all to bring about one thing and one thing only. Redemption. God is in the business of redeeming all that has been lost, broken, tarnished and painful. It's His passion.
And we are the recipients of this redemption. It's a gift. We only have to accept it.
I'm going to assume that the majority of you all have heard in some form the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I'm not talking about religious acts, denominations or the like. I'm talking about Romans 10:9  "if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
Romans 10:9 ESV
What a powerful truth. It's rocked me to the core to realize that that gift of salvation is free for us. Free. No strings attached. And no matter what your past is, nor your present, if you choose to believe that Jesus is Lord and He rose from the grave to redeem your past and present, then you can guarantee that your eternal future will be better than you can ever imagine.
We will have trials and sadness and anger, but God, is infinatly big enough to handle those things for us.
My trials is my mental health diagnosis. God has not healed me. But He will someday. The healing is not just in the instantaneous act of healing but is rather in the process that God leads us thru in faith. I have spiritual battle scars from times when I fought against myself and the devil. Some wounds are still fresh. But today, as I write this, I recognize that thru the pain, comes healing and grace. I want to walk in such a way in my life that I no longer look at trials as inherently evil. But rather look at them as stepping stones to the very heart of God.
I hope that you all can understand what I am talking about. Know that you are wanted and very much loved by the one true God.